Life has been really hard lately. I’ve found myself in one of those lulls where all I want to do is curl up in a cozy blanket, eat cupcakes, and feel sorry for myself. YEP…I’ll be honest, it’s been on of those kinds of weeks.
A few weeks ago, I started this blog with The Joy of Sharing, where I shared my hearts greatest desire to share my life with others and spread light into the lives of those around me. But, after feeling sorry for myself all week and consuming copious amounts of coffee and chocolate, I realized I wasn’t doing anyone any good by sharing only the good parts of life. Reality check: everyone has struggles. I realized that I am not meant to share only the good parts of life, but also these struggles.
The other day a good friend shared a verse with me that opened my eyes and put everything I was going through into a better perspective.
“Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” — Romans 5:3-5
I read this and my heart was completely undone. God is challenging me because He loves me. The circumstances of my day, my week, my month, my life will never outweigh God’s love for me. He is the only thing constant, unchanging, and never-ending, and it is Jesus alone that will satisfy my every need, want, and desire. I am designed to find contentment and fulfillment through God alone.
So, I admit it…finding joy in times of darkness is really hard. And I confess, I can often find myself consumed by the darkness around me and the circumstances of my day. But, when I look to the cross, I am blinded by the glorious light of Christ and I find my heart overwhelmed with pure joy.